The Influence

to nervous to smile
to nervous to think
losing my breath
it's hard to speak
stumbling my words
losing my thoughts
paying the price
of whatever it costs
biting my lip
biting my tongue
wondering if we're having fun
these are my worries
my personal inquiries
my post date symptoms
that are derogatorily
over thought
and over used
not to mention
a tad bit abused
so to heal my scratches
to heal my bruises
to make me feel a bit more tad bit useless
i'll write this out
with discrete
leave it be
read it tomorrow
then press delete