The Influence

her eyes sealed shut
her mouth bit closed
her outstretched leg
and her wiggling toes
she’s a thing of beauty
she mine for tonight
she’s more than physical
a mental delight
her silky smooth skin
her childish grin
the bite marks i left
under her chin
tilted chairs
and un-tucked sheets
criss crossed legs
the rubbing of feet
not looking around
letting our eyes meet
sharing each other
combining our heat
enjoying the moment
forgetting the conception of time
feeling her body
as she holds onto mine
engraving nails
the markings of love
pushing and pulling
twisting and turning
gasping for air
has her panting and yearning
a sigh of relief
is more a sigh of affection
this is my heart
i’ve found the connection

you say you feel no pain
but your eyes don't say the same
they tell me you hurt inside
subconsciously you're in vein
your eyes tell me that you want me
they tell me what i want to hear
your eyes tell me of your beauty
while your lashes hide all your fears
your eyes engulf me completely
almost distracting me from your smile
your eyes see right through me
knowing i feel less than worth your while
your eyes are quite the wonder
speaking straight from your heart
your eyes are witty, funny , gorgeous, and none the less even smart
your eyes are not like any others
no your eyes were meant for more
meant for my eyes, your eyes are mine to explore
meant to love and question and reason
your eyes were meant for mine to adore

call me nice
this is true
call me names
i'll turn blue
call me drunk
i'll probably laugh
call me out
i'll call back
call me short
i'll attack
call me uptight
i'll relax
call me mean
i'll be nice
call me boring
well alright
cause i hate accusations
based on limited confrontations
acting different in situations
with people of mixed relations
cause friends know i'm funny
acquaintances think i'm shy
strangers don't even know me
girls ignore me when they walk by
so call me what you want
your probably calling me something undesired
no i'm far from being lonely
this friends for hire sign must be retired

there's my home boy k'naan
changing the world with his songs
then there's my guy mos def
sending darkness to it's death
can't forget my main man cheadle
strong whenever everyone else sits fetal
i can picture myself with them
sitting back while we chat, letting it be just like the beetles
we'd look at all the people,
all the problems that seem so feeble
converse amongst ourselves
find the answers, crush them because they're evil
no one wants the truth
willing to believe misconceptions
letting only the elite
decide political elections
it's all about connections
like a virus or infection
kills off the weak
but i believe in the resurrection
the bringing back of life
of a soul that lost affection
a life with nothing but a minor defection
that symbolizes a reflection
of a point of intersection
between a charge and a convection
it's all just a deception
there's no such thing as perfection
and life's full of these more often than common complexions
cause who knew a little step back
could send you so far ahead
release all the stress
lose the animosity
a high speed life
weed sex and money equal velocity
what is the cost to me
i'm sure i can afford it
success is up for grabs
i for one plan to hoard it
then i'll distort it
in my eyes i'll contort it
try not to force it
so i'll patiently wait
idolize, strive to be like the guys that already morn it

to nervous to smile
to nervous to think
losing my breath
it's hard to speak
stumbling my words
losing my thoughts
paying the price
of whatever it costs
biting my lip
biting my tongue
wondering if we're having fun
these are my worries
my personal inquiries
my post date symptoms
that are derogatorily
over thought
and over used
not to mention
a tad bit abused
so to heal my scratches
to heal my bruises
to make me feel a bit more tad bit useless
i'll write this out
with discrete
leave it be
read it tomorrow
then press delete

inspired by inspiration
a slave to dedication
i strive to live my life
as if everyday was a vacation
an escape from the world
to the heart of relaxation
it'd be nice to have a girl
in which i could share all of these relations
i try to have patience
avoid the lonely fear
but i can't stop thinking about the girl that isn't here
i'de whisper in her ear
wrap my arm around her and draw her near
scare away her fears
embrace all her peers
make a fire to keep her warm
and a home away from here
and she'd love me just the same
hurt when i'm in pain
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getting sloppy, n bahama mama's is calling my name, i'll edit this when the times right...

lately i've been thinking
maybe i need a brand new plan
maybe i need to start focusing
at the situation that's at hand
but i cannot concentrate
no i keep getting distracted
and its hard to walk away from you
cause i find you so attractive
wishing for you to notice me
i know i'm nothing special
and all i can get is less
but i'm not looking just to settle
maybe were not meant to be
but i know we can make it work
we'll get through these bitter times
whether we have bags full of riches or dirt
look at me and promise
you won't succumb to earthly desires
i know your growing weary
and i too am also tired
one day i'll make it worth it
you'll love me just the same
we'll have wealth and gold and money
and no reason to complain
as for now i just wish
you would love me though i'm poor
my love for you is priceless
but you still beg for more
i've made my self evaluation
and i'm starting to improve
i've got everything on the line
and nothing more to lose
soon i will be prosperous
and i wonder if you'll love me
or if i will just be an atm
convenient for your funding